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#329768 - 04/26/10 11:49 AM Re: What makes me do this? [Re: Dusty Boy]
philistine Offline

Registered: 04/27/09
Posts: 212
Loc: Oregon

Thank you for posting this thread.


"No price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself" - Nietzsche

#331743 - 05/23/10 03:12 PM Re: What makes me do this? [Re: philistine]
Aberrant30 Offline

Registered: 01/29/10
Posts: 139
Loc: I live on the Emerald Coast, F...
All I know from my time in recovery, is that i acted out alot in my older teens, with older men, evneutaly it stoped but, still felt guilty about it. I understand how you feel Jbells, and I hope you'll still keep in contact with me and others, for help.

"The beginning of eternity
The end of time and space
The beginning of every end,
And the end of every place."
Hint: It's in front of you right now.
(Formerly known as Aberrant30

#331805 - 05/23/10 09:28 PM Re: What makes me do this? [Re: Aberrant30]
petercorbett Offline

Registered: 07/27/08
Posts: 2509
Hi, my fraternal brothers.

WOW, my brother Bobcat, surely spelled it out, along with my other brothers here.

Acting out...Sometimes i still do it. It's a work in progress.

Heal well, my fraternal brothers, heal well.


Working Boys' Home 10-14 yrs old, grades 5-8. 1949-1953
A very humble alumni of the WOR Dahlonega, GA.
May 15-17 2009, Alta, Sep. 2009. Sequoia, 2010.
Hope Springs, 2010.

#331813 - 05/23/10 09:49 PM Re: What makes me do this? [Re: petercorbett]
king tut Offline

Registered: 02/13/08
Posts: 2488
Loc: UK
Thanks for starting this thread Justin, it was very brave, and as you can see, as we start to talk about these things openly it helps many other people along the way, and we see that we are not alone in this.

And Bobcat, i couldn't say it any better than you have! very good response, and spot-on.



#331819 - 05/23/10 10:12 PM Re: What makes me do this? [Re: Dusty Boy]
ericc Offline

Registered: 01/05/08
Posts: 1986
I needed this thread right now more than you can know. Thanks.

I can fully relate to feeling that I was once a good person, and then bad stuff happened and I have been defective ever since, or at least since I remembered. And I have punished myself for that for a long time. It greatly affects my relationships. It fuels distressing and dangerous behaviors. I need to quit punishing myself. When I am able to get to my core, I really am a decent person. But I still act on the shame and guilt, and feelings that I am not a good person. I really puts me in a bad place. Thanks again.


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