bkeithb- in having the thoughts you are having is a good sign that you are on the road of recovery. I can remember when I first started the journey of healing as an alcoholic I couldn't imagine saying I was an alcoholic everytime I spoke in a meeting but after while I got over that and got on with my healing. Some folks never do. I think you are one of those survivors that moves on with the healing. Too many people put labels on people these days and I think that is one of the fears we have. But, as some of the other guys have said...to hell with what others think as long as I know who I am and where I am going. Being able to dump this shit we have had bottled up for all of these years is a great release to the inner soul that needs the cleansing so we can get on with our lives. All the power to you my friend and peace on your journey. Xenoman