was talking about feeling like trash, well, that's how i'm feeling lately. feel like trash. feel like an outcast on a site to help support others. i may be wrong but that's how i've been feeling lately.
I respect where your coming from. It is important to not blame the abuse and just be where your at.
You and I have some strong similarities in your "stories" so, I immediately connected with you. You also, reached out to me and I reached out to you. While this is great, there are great guys to chat with as well. Kidney is a great guy. The neat thing is your connecting.
This is a balancing act allowing others to get to know you and for you to get to know them. For me, as CSA and a SA survivor it has taken me about 8 months here to understand how to "work" this out here on this website.
All of us are different. YOU Obi are doing great. In this post you are finding your voice. The struggle is finding your voice. "Knowing" where your at" is important.
We all have personalities which we will mesh with others in both good and bad AND grey areas.
This may sound as clear as mud - lol.
TRUST is a huge issue. I made the mistake of starting out trusting everybody and wanting everybody to trust me. The truth is I dont trust and needed to learn the difference. For me getting to the "feelings" I separated from at 6 during the csa and at 28 during the SA has been crucial for me to be complete and not at the mercy of others so to speak - not saying anyone here is.
I try to remember the wonderful support I get even if I am not getting what i need currently.