It seems as if these symptoms have gotten a bit more intense after seeing your T. That sounds like you're working it out of your system and healing. It will lose intensity. Now that you've talked about the incident and got it out in the open, perhaps you're in the stage that's like pooring the rubbing alcohol on the wound. It'll hurt now and suck somewhat, but it will help you "clean the wound" and heal down to the core.
Yea, I understand the gagging part. Sometimes the physical symptoms of the PTSD can be more frightening than anything because it feels like you're reliving the event. Moreso, I think, than flashbacks of sound and sight. That's just from my experiences and this may not apply to some others.
One of the hard things for me was going on dates and feeling obligated to sleep with a girl. Social stigmas would point in the other direction but, I felt that if I went on a few dates, then I should make a move and try to sleep with the girl or she'd loose interest. I pressured myself before I felt comfortable with the individual and ended up feeling sick and terrified when getting intimate. I learned it takes a bit longer for me to warm up intimately with others. However, I've learned to respect that and I make that clear to a potential partner. This has depleted my anxiety around intimacy issues immensely. I can actually enjoy being intimate now. Aside from the guilt I still feel at times but I'm working around that too. I just gotta grow some and start meeting more women and going on more dates.
Dating sucks anyway so of course it will feel uncomfortable lol.
Good luck DJ, The storm will pass.
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