I have to add my two cents to this topic.

So I know I struggle with touch issues as a result of the abuse.

My Dad and Mom have found a great massage therapist they love.

My parents are aware of my abuse and my Dad is insistent on me getting a massage but I struggle with getting a physical with a doctor.

I do hope one day to get a massage.

I fear so much with a massage, mostly the unknown or what if's that I overplay in my head.

I guess I'm scared of what might happen, how my body would react.

I just don't know.

I find safety in my pain and frustration.

It's not always healthy though to be in pain.