In my recovery, I am going directly to action. I have been 2nd guessing myself - this is true. You all know by seeing my many posts.
I am getting better balance in my life emotionally. While this balancing act happens emotionally the other events fall into place ie my friendships, therapy, my family interactions, money, and job.
I have drawn from the tools I know from my 12-step program. I have gotten most of my affirmation for my daily life from you guys here.
Personally, I have learned to breathe (the csa caused me to have PTSD and one of the affects was I stop breathing at emotional moments), cry when I need to, be angry when I need to, take breaks to clear my mind, exercise, consume food that is healthy (ok, I fudge a little), HAVE FUN, be present, get together with friends, be here, give back, help others, and go to the bathroom as my body needs to.
I do not go to the 3rd or 4th or more guessing myself.
I came to accept what happened to me as a boy last November. I continue to grieve but starting this summer I with the help of my T, my T group members and some great men here (Sans-Ron, Andy both Nev-FT, Sono, JDV, etc) I got to the deep sorrow and Joy Donnie missed feeling.
Now to continue and not 2nd guess my self just know I can make a decision and feel what I need to feel and be whole.
There will be bumps and mistakes made and can handle them.
I love this website and all that are here.
Keep on keeping on.
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