I think some of you have the wrong idea about my deciding not to want to post. I am not ashamed or embarrassed about any of it. I am a miracle for having achieved mediocrity.
The nearly successful intent of the torture I endured at the shelter was to make me retarded and insane so I'd have to spend my life in an institution.
I have enemies in the world, people who seem to have made it an avocation to cause me harm. I do not know them personally I only know them by the signs they leave*. This is compounded and partly encouraged and caused by my communication problems. I have expressive aphasia** but I am high functioning. I appear normal but because I had it inflicted at such a developmentally critical time I didn't get to have the critical exchanges that answer and explain the world to a child. My abusers deeply enjoyed the idea that I would be trapped in my mind fully aware and unable to communicate with people. They had finally deduced after a couple of years of me telling them that my ability to be right was not magic or me somehow using whitey tricks, I was simply taught how to think and to ask the questions that lead to the answer. So interfering with my ability to ask those questions became the tactic used to undermine me and finally bring me down. They thrilled at what they began to learn and took much pleasure in denying it to me.
* I was injured at work and the medical treatment I got ended up turning a nothing injury into 100% disability. I have only recently began to figure out what is going on with my medical care. http://www.patient-safety.com/blacklisting_patients.htm
And I am hermit like because of my aphasia, in a strange town which I was snookered into buying in. The people here are quite evil and xenophobic to the point of practically not even allowing news from outside the area in. They have taken great pleasure in stripping me of my retirement settlement and doing as shoddy a job as possible and the inspector passes it. They've sicced the IRS on me to strip away my savings as well. It is coming oout of the local office because I get it fixed and another bill comes And somehow my phone calls with the people who fix the problem aren't in the record after I get a new bill. I nearly lost my home because of the credit union conning me into an ARM and I am now twice as far into debt as I had invested into this place when I took it out. I had to refi from a nearly paid off 15 year mortgage to a 30 year mortgage at 2.625% higher rate. I'm not happy and the regulators are just as corrupt.
**http://www.aphasia.org/ They sat around in front of me openly thinking of ways to harm me w/o leaving a mark on my body that would leave lasting damage and make my life hard.