Y'know, this has been a real eye-opener for me. I really had no idea that there were so many people with evil as the very basis for their existence. It's incomprehensible to me how and why anyone could do this stuff to another human being, especially a child.

These people are walking the streets? They're laughing and living and leaving a trail of broken people who struggle just to survive? HOW???? How do they sleep at night?

Scott, children are all innocent and beautiful. There was--IS--nothing dirty or shameful about you. I know it only takes one "aw sh--" to wipe out 1000 "attaboys". Around here, it's only a matter of time before we reach the place in you that can believe the good positive things that are inside you--the things that are TRUE. \:D

"Truth is things as they REALLY are". The truth is, you are beautiful, you are lovable, you are LOVED, you are bright and shiny, you are worth it. THEY LIED!!! You WILL succeed!

These "people" (if you can call them that) who did these things to you hold you "hostage" for some weird perverted quirk of THEIRS. YOU never were the problem, and you're not the problem now. I know sometimes it's almost impossible to get up the nerve to "tell", but it seems like it would be a great "revenge" on the people who think they're holding this atrocity over your head. (I'm not advocating revenge, I just couldn't think of a more liberating word!) Everyone here believes YOU, not them.

I hope that you will listen to the people like Dave (Lloydy), and Mikey (Church), and the others who are succeeding and doing really well. They are proof that it can be overcome. You can do it too! The really awesome thing is, they are right here willing to hold your hand and walk you through. It can't get any better than that!!!

I wish you peace. Real peace.


"Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up."

Anne Lamott