I saw my therapist today and it turned out great! It is ironic to say so since it began very badly, with the usual back and forth "how does this or that make you feel?" etc. Being down this road before with other T's I was becoming very frustrated and was just staring off into space while waiting for the time to pass until I told myself "you are here for you" and was able to vocalize to him that this wasn't working for me that I needed to leave. Unlike other T's I've had though, who would have just let me go he questioned if I needed to do so in order to deal with my stuff alone, which I confirmed. I then asked him why all the questions about how I am feeling, to which he replied that everyone is feeling something every given moment whether they acknowledge it or not so no matter what one is doing it is the only place to start. Absurdly this is never something I considered before while in therapy. I am someone who starts with my head in most things I do so being able to begin from a "feeling perspective" was a real breakthough, if this makes any sense. Anyways I am looking foreward to next week. Thanks for listening:) JS
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