Thanks again so much for all the great words of support. I really felt like I had a whole crew of people rooting for me to have a good experience. It absolutely was a very good experience. I have talked here on line with so many of you and of course the soul baring experience that writing your story is, which I did twice...ouch!, anyway... that all helped very much to just let me go where I wanted in that first session which was on Tuesday.
It was immediately clear that he would take his cue from me, so I just said, OK well here's what happened to me...and went with it. He mostly listened but very pointedly asked shortly after I began if was completely clear that we were talking about child abuse and not an adult relationship, which while it's an idea I'm working on, it still feels like an easy excuse to be honest, but anyway...I went on and then backtracked to family, and had just gotten into that freak show, when time was up, so we determined that we could get together again on Thursday. On Thursday I mostly wrapped up the family and we'll see now where we go from here with all of that out there. It was amazing to get it off my chest, I can literally breathe more easily.
I'm totally clueless about where the next step goes, but how swell to be on the trip.
thanks again guys,