Many right now find themselves in similar straights unfortunately. No need to apologize. You are free to use the site as a registered user only for as long as you need to. there will come a time sometime and somewhere where you will find yourself giving back in a financial way. It may not even be here but it will happen. In the meantime just continue to give of yourself in the way that you are by supporting your brothers in healing with your words. No one could ask for more.
"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting 'Holy Shit! What a ride!'" ~Hunter S. Thompson