I had the most awesome beautiful spiritual moment yesterday.
I was able to share (get through) with a very troubled young man who lives nearby. I sat down next to this guy at a park bench. He looked very worried and had been crying. As soon as I sat down he got very tight lipped and closed off.
After a bit of bravo talk, I asked him how he was doing. He started to bawl. He bawled for about 3 minutes and then he stated why am I "alive". I was having a difficult time understanding him because of his accent. He is Russian.
I was so struck at his comment and my being at the spot in time and place.
I stated because you are a gift. He kept talking stating his gift was taken from him. I asked him how so. He stated his parents were killed in a car accident in 1999 and his sister died 2 years ago after being raped and killed by her pimp, and his lover/brother died after getting pneumonia. Usually, I would have been like "OMG" and tried to "save" him or prevent him from feeling this losses.
I restated you're a gift. He stopped talking and looked me square in the eyes. He looked like an angel. He said the gift I lost was my mother singing to me.
We continued. I knew after my owning my feelings (4 years of CSA work) that he too needed to feel his feelings.
Anyway, to make a long interaction brief - he remembered a song she sang to him. He sang me part of the song and I remembered the title. He said "you are an angel", I have been to all of the music stores and no one has been able to help me. We were close to my house so we went to my computer to verify the song and he could hear it. He bawled and started singing. I am not one to remember a song nor am I one to say connected with another when there are feelings being expressed.
He was Happy when he left my place. I was told by the psychologist who I saw after I woke up on 4-1-2008 (after I od'd) that I am a gift. I was able to have the same discussion with another. I did not fully understand her saying "I am a gift" until yesterday.
I was once a licensed Minister who talked about spiritual moments but until yesterday I have not had such an spiritual moment. I have had my own moments of awakenings.
OMG - what an experience.
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