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#29549 - 03/16/05 09:09 AM So lonely.
Mark R. Offline

Registered: 02/27/05
Posts: 28
Loc: Santa Cruz, CA
I want to post, to tell my story, but I can't. I just sit here, reading everyone elses stories. I keep looking to find myself in your stories, I have. I want to be a little boy again and change everything, I can't. I don't want to be alone, but I am. It was so long ago, I will never forget. He never hurt me physically, emotionally, he destroyed me. I want to meet him one more time and tell him how much I hate him and how he ruined my life.

In others we find strength to face our monster, in helping others we can become the giant that defeats the monsters.

#29550 - 03/16/05 09:25 AM Re: So lonely.
FormerTexan Offline

Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 12125
Loc: Denver, CO
If I had a wish, I would go back in time, be a 10-year-old again and just beat the crap outta this kid who broke his boundaries with me.

I'm sad for what happened to you.

Post your account when you feel it is safe to. There is no pressure.

Money talks, but all it tells me is goodbye.

If I could meet myself as a boy...

#29551 - 03/16/05 09:28 PM Re: So lonely.
Andrew Offline
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Registered: 07/25/03
Posts: 1192
Mark, we have no rules that insist you must share. We are here for you unconditionally. Whatever feels comfortable for you, whatever promotes your feeling better and healing is just fine with the guys here. Peace, Andrew

there is no courage without anxiety

#29552 - 03/16/05 09:46 PM Re: So lonely.
Bobby Offline

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
You don't ever have to share your story if you don't want to, Mark But do write. It helps the loneliness to write, because someone will always be here to listen and to comment, and to try to help, if that's what you need. If we can't do anything else, we can let you know that we care, we understand, and that you're not alone. Bobby

I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.

#29553 - 03/16/05 09:49 PM Re: So lonely.
ForeverFighting Offline

Registered: 02/09/05
Posts: 1253
Loc: New Mexico, USA

You're not alone. I understand being destroyed emotionally, and I often think that's the worst. Post when you're ready. But just hanging around here is plenty. You don't have to tell your story. Just writing like you did, those words you would like to say to that perp. That feels better. And believe it or not, it makes us feel better, too.

"This search for the truth--it's not for the faint of heart."--Goren on 'Law & Order: CI'
"The former things will not be called to mind, nor will they come up into the heart."--Isaiah 65:17


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