will, if you're gay, you're gay. there is no shame in that. if you're not, that's ok as well. many of us guys who are gay and were abused by other males learned to internalize cultural homophobia, causing us to loathe ourselves for being who we are.
it would probably be a good idea to work out these significant question with a therapist who specializes in male survivor issues. also, reading and absorbing mike lew's compelling survivors bible 'victim's no longer' will help put things in perspective for you.
whatever you are, you are just fine, and don't need adjusted. just be honest with yourself, and you will turn round right soon enough.
all the best,
Ron Schulz, MSPC, NCC