My marriage seems to be falling apart. I can't blame her. I am so closed off emotionally. I don't even want to make love anymore. But we still love each other. We aren't yelling and screaming all the time, just disconnected. She is an abuse victim too.
I didn't marry until I was 50. I was so introverted, I never had any serious girlfriends in all that time. All those wasted years of loneliness and depression. And now that I have someone, I am pushing her away. That she has stayed with me for 7 years is a miracle.
At first, our relationship was what I would consider normal. It was volatile at times as we learned to live wiht one another. But our sex life was good. I don't know what happened to trigger this regression on my part.
Oddly, part of me wants to be alone, to do my own thing. But I was miserable with that life, and I know I will miss her terribly if she goes. And I worry about her too. She is very fragile emotionally. I wish I could break out of this emotional prison.
Edited by ceegee (11/20/08 06:22 PM)
Sometimes we need to pause in our pursuit of happiness, and just BE happy- Author unknown