It's been awhile since I've been here...just popped in to say "Hi"...
Aside from a couple of emotionally charged emails several months ago, I've effectively broken all contact with my SO.
I've recently gotten involved with a new guy and I found myself experiencing alot of things I feel might be interesting to partners that are considering leaving a partner they've been with for many years.
I've always accepted the fact that the relationship I'd spent the majority of my life in was a little "left of center" when it came to "normal" by definition. I just never realized, in the throws of it, how far away it actually was....
It's been difficult for me to trust again. It's been difficult to believe what I'm hearing. I find myself forever waiting for the other shoe to fall. Earlier tonight, I put off having sex with him, yet again, and I can't even identify a good reason.
I sound like a survivor, and I'm not. But I was in a 30 year relationship with one.
Maybe this is all happening too soon. I wasn't really looking to get into anything for awhile. This just presented itself, we started hanging out, started going for coffee, talking... He's so open...it just happened. It's SO nice, I'm actually afraid of it.