I believe you will too. Steve is a good example for us. I do feel like that kind of healing is possible (usually) and he is proof that it is. It kind of feels like pushing a rock up a hill, you know? I see all this progress I'm making and hope for the future... I see the top of the hill... next thing I know I'm 3/4's of the way back down with the rock on top of me and struggling to breathe. But I have noticed that the time and effort in pushing the rock back up the hill has paid off and it is easier to get back where I was and to maintain it for longer.
I like to write in metaphor, but it always makes me think of a line in the Jack Nicholson movie As Good As It Gets: "People who speak in metaphor should shampoo my crotch." Ha Ha Nothing like a little self doubt
It is strange how some days I feel like no one can hurt me because I've been through so much sh*t - I feel maybe overly confident. And some days I feel weak and afraid. It can drive me mad! Consistency, please be a friend to me! (all in good time!)