Mike my Brother,
There is a thread in the MaleSurvivor forum "Abused by Female/Mother" that may have some gems for you. I posted a reference to a Mother/Son incest book there along with comments from Joe Kort praising the Author for addressing the topic. Wendy Maltz in her book "The Sexual Healing Journey" takes time early on to validate female on male sexual abuse, including a reference to a Barbara Walters interview of Don Johnson where he speaks of his first sexual encounter -- which was clearly abuse at the hands of an older woman --. http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...6561#Post256561
My Brother, I am certain you will find many men who share your abuse history as you progress along in your recovery. I certainly have, and the list keeps growing.
As a final note I have heard and read Patrick Carnes -- a pioneer and leading voice in the field of Sexual Addictions -- note that in our society it is difficult for men to identify experiences as abuse. A young boy and an older woman is more likely to be viewed as a "Score" than as the Abuse that it is. Not unlike my abuse at the hands of a female babysitter when I was 10/11.
Keep walking through your recovery, stay connected with your fellows and supports, and work through your pain points. You will surely find the Joy that has been obscured by your wounds.
Happy to be a recovering survivor. :-)
Continuing to meet more of my fellows as I "Trudge the Road of Happy Destiny". My Story, 1st pass