Sean, I wish I could take away all the pain and the insanity that was visited on you by a monster.
I do not usually read this kind of thing because it gets to be so deep.
But I cannot stop hearing your call for understanding and your call for help. And for no one to judge you.
I hear you, I may not fully understand, but I will NEVER judge you.
I think others may not know what to say also. Sometimes all we can do is say we are here for you. Let it out. Let it all out. This is not, and never was, your fault.
"I finally have my heart!"
To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord