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#255411 - 10/15/08 01:47 PM I am not
sunwolf Offline

Registered: 09/20/08
Posts: 225
Loc: Indiana
The darkness takes over my room
my eyes are open I can't close them
I only see shadows and dark
my body shivers but there is no cold
my hands are shaking
I feel someone is here
but I can't see him
I feel my body to see if I am alive
I can feel someone but I can't see him
my body is hurting too much
my soul is hurting too much
I can't cry
I can't say it
it is not a nightmare
wish it was
I am awake
wish I was asleep
I don't feel my body anymore
I am not here
I am not
I am
the tears now come
and I can cry...

Edited by sunwolf (10/15/08 01:50 PM)

#255416 - 10/15/08 02:21 PM Re: I am not [Re: sunwolf]
Fissy Tsickens Offline

Registered: 09/23/08
Posts: 466
Loc: Bassett, Virginia
OMG, sunwolf...your words could be mine. Thanks for sharing.

Peace and love,


Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home Iíll never see

It may sound absurd...but donít be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but wonít you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
Itís not easy to be me

#255649 - 10/16/08 04:19 PM Re: I am not [Re: Fissy Tsickens]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

You speak for so many of us, and so vividly. It just goes to show that sometimes only a poem does it. I hope writing this one has helped you. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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