I have been reading a book on identifying with your inner child. The book focuses on identifying the child within, in order to heal. To be quite honest about it, I have done many of the things already in the book, but it really is intriguing.
I lost most sense of how to play from 11 years on, I spent so much times of anguish, learning off other kids, how they play, how innocently they play, how they have no agenda of time, they are spontaneous in their actions, no way do they have the worries of adults.
What would I not do for one night of real sleep, and wake up refreshed???
A chapter in the book identifies with, getting in touch with the inner child, and fixing the hurt, by watching kids interaction with you or others, funny thing is, this is what I have always done since I was 11yo.
I went to the supermarket one day and saw two boys make instant friendship with their eyes, yes, I remember this, I smiled at both of them, and they both smiled back, maybe my inner child is being healed by knowing, there is still that beauty in the World.
My childhood was mainly spent away from play, not totally, but I always had to have time on the coast to just cry and let emotions out, emotions that where unimaginable in a young kids mind, so I forgot so much how to play, don't suppose I ever got to terms with why it happened to me.
Ok, let's say I was the one in four or six, who knows for real, it cost me my life, it nearly took it away on at least two occasions, but I fought it off, hey I smelled grass only the other day, something I forgot about.
I also get the bad part which is constant discharge from my left nostril, can't stand anything in my mouth, I bauk at putting a toothbrush in my mouth, sometimes makes me so sick, but I have to clean my teeth, what is left of them.
The inner child working, sometimes can be so much an irk with people I work with, but I have to work with him, he is the one who gets me this far, he should have had so much going for him, he lost it, so I have to try and resurrect him.
My inner child knows no harm, he sees the World, now as so insecure, but he knows the adult is there to protect him, but even the adult is abused now for seeking the child within.
But the child is so much more becoming stronger, as he has been broken so many times through past events, he wants, just as he always wanted, a World free of these heinous acts, and to just live in a place of peace and harmony away and far away from abuse and misery.
This is what I owe him, he will get his wish, it is the only thing he ever wanted, he could never be the child, but I will put his childhood back and block out all the memories of the past
Whoever stole the Sun, put it back and we'll drop all the charges!