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#249138 - 09/11/08 04:37 PM Dream Last Night
Barkabus Offline

Registered: 05/09/08
Posts: 809
This is a dream I had last night. I apologize for the structure. When I got up this morning I wanted to capture as much detail as I could. This is what I wrote.

Edited for some grammar corrections and a few content revisions

I am arrested for something. I donít know what. I had jail time for maybe a week. I was in horrible shame. A good friend of mine, someone I have a lot of respect for was there too. He had been arrested too for the same or similar thing and it was not the first time for him. While in jail, all of us have something like old style computer punch cards hang from our necks. I donít know what these are for but you are always supposed to wear them. My friend says on one part of the punch cards says how long I will be there but I cannot read it however I seem to know I will be there for about a week, maybe less. After I get out I am publicly humiliated. The license plate on my truck is marked that identifies me as a convict of some sort. I donít know if only in a general way or if for a specific type of crime.

I am now with a therapist in his car. I donít know where weíre going. Donít know the person but in the dream I know him as care provider that I seem to know well.
Driving and talking. We drift into oncoming traffic at high speed and almost have a head on collision. T was not paying attention to his driving.

T drives me to a hospital (Meridian Park possibly). Begins talking to me about an in-patient program he wants me to check into.
I begin to panic. I donít want to. He said he wanted to send me to a program in Australia but it was not possible (I donít know why) but the one here is good he says. I am scared. He says they have just finished renovating the hospital. All rooms are private. He gave me a tour of the hospital grounds. Pointed out a big evergreen tree that has graffiti painted around the base. It is also enclosed by a fence. There is a special meaning to this tree but I donít remember what the T told me. Something about 911 and a patient at the hospital around that time. My T is upset about it for some reason.

I said I do not have a job. My T is frustrated by this. Asks well, how are you going to afford this? Do you still have insurance. I said yes, I am on COBRA. He was relieved and said that will be fine. I said I need my dogs. He said oh they allow a dog. I said I have two dogs. He said you may only bring one dog. I don't know which one to choose. I am distressed. Dream is over.

When I woke up this morning I remember this dream and began crying. While still in bed I called my dogs to console me. Shelby, my oldest dog she will be 12 in Nov. (I have two golden retriever/mix) could not jump on my bed. She is getting too old and weak. I begin crying even harder. I am crying now as I type this.

What is happening?


Edited by Barkabus (09/12/08 10:02 PM)

#249145 - 09/11/08 05:42 PM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Barkabus]
Dan99 Offline

Registered: 06/18/07
Posts: 168
Loc: Washington DC
I don't know enough about dreams to know what yours mean.

I do know I'm wrestling with disturbing dreams myself these days, too. Two nights in a row now. I usually don't have trouble with them.

In the past when my dreams kick up it's been a warning sign that I'm not doing something I should. Usually I'm disregarding my needs and not taking adequate care of myself. The dreams are sort of an alarm bell that goes off when I'm refusing to take better care of myself or protect my interests.

I'm still thrashing through the latest, but anyway you're not alone with this.

Take care,

Work like you don't need the money;
dance like no one is watching;
sing like no one is listening;
love like you've never been hurt;
and live life every day as if it were your last.

#249186 - 09/12/08 12:52 AM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Dan99]
Tinman Offline

Registered: 05/30/08
Posts: 359
Loc: Lake Forest, CA
Mike, I also don't know enough about dreams. But I recognize the pattern in my own dreams.

Being pushed (or sometimes forcibly taken) into a jail/mental ward/military that I don't want to be in and it scares me.

I wonder if these are not manifestations of what we think should happen or what we were told should happen.

I no longer subscribe to the view that everything in your dreams is about your mother or everyone in them is you! lol.

Maybe Ken could shed some light here?


"I finally have my heart!"

To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord

#249226 - 09/12/08 08:28 AM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Tinman]
blueshift Offline

Registered: 01/21/08
Posts: 1242
Loc: infinity
I really feel that dream interpretation should be done by the dreamer myself. Not because there is anything wrong with talking about dreams or getting someones feedback, but I just don't believe in one set of symbolism for everyone to interpret their dreams by.

Different things are have different meanings for different people. I sometimes interpret my own dreams and when I do I don't just think about them, I also feel about them and ask myself what those feelings are saying through the symbols in the dream.

But only you were there and only you experienced that unique concoction of impressions which makes up that particular message..if there is one.
That's my two cents. (three if you count the nonsense.)

My Story
My Art

#249227 - 09/12/08 08:56 AM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: blueshift]
Stretch73 Offline

Registered: 06/27/08
Posts: 336
Loc: Sea Isle City, NJ
Dear Mike,

I don't know what dreams mean, or "What Dreams May Come." I wish I had a solution for you, or a few words of encouragement, but I lack the vocabulary. I have this recurring dream that I'm on a bridge all by my lonesome, and the bridge doesn't connect to anything. No roads, or off ramps, or highways beyond. It's just the edge on one side and the other. I look down, hoping I can make the jump or somehow find a way to climb it, but it's useless. I've had this dream since I was a kid.

I think it means that I'm afraid of being alone or being lonely. That realization is ever so evident with the way I treat people. Consciously I mean well, but something gets in the way between good and disgust. I don't spend a great deal of my time socializing with other people. I suppose that I just forgot how to be around them.

I do not make an effort to please people, as I'm sure you can imagine. "I am very aware of how wise I am not."

Blended By The Light!


"I was so poor growing up, that if I wasn't born a boy, I wouldn't have had anything to play with." Rodney Dangerfield

#249314 - 09/12/08 07:45 PM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Stretch73]
Barkabus Offline

Registered: 05/09/08
Posts: 809

I had another dream last night. It was very short and very shocking. This is very difficult for me to even say. The dream was a very vivid picture of my penis being torn off. Not by force. It just became detached but it looked like it was torn off. It was just barely still attached then it came off completely in my hand. There was nothing but a stump left. There was no pain and no blood but I was traumatized, in shock and horrified. Then in the dream I thought NO! This did not just happen! And then it was instantly attatched again like it never happened. I was filled with relief then the dream ended.

My Story

#249316 - 09/12/08 08:03 PM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Barkabus]
ineffable Offline

Registered: 02/07/08
Posts: 1371
Loc: state of holeecrapdood

From emasculation/neutering to reclaiming your "manhood".
Though you may not feel like it, tonight you might want to go out & bark at the moon Bark


:: "Anyone who can handle a needle convincingly can make us see a thread which is not there" ::

#249321 - 09/12/08 09:08 PM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: Barkabus]
pufferfish Offline

Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6875
Loc: USA
Wow again!

Forgive me for another inane answer.

The dream is the effects of a manipulative mother and CSA followed by therapy.


#249348 - 09/13/08 01:41 AM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: pufferfish]
oriolesguy Offline

Registered: 08/13/08
Posts: 125
Loc: Long Island, NY
Dreams are haunting me lately too. They never did before. I've got images of being gang raped again in there. One or two nights lately I woke up screaming (so my wife says), and she asked me what I was dreaming about. Shamefully lying, I told her I didn't remember. I haven't told her yet.
To say the least it's disturbing me. It's one of those things I don't have any control over.


#249351 - 09/13/08 04:00 AM Re: Dream Last Night [Re: oriolesguy]
KENKEN Offline

Registered: 09/25/07
Posts: 762
I have nightmares between 3 and 4 times every week. They are the same nightmares over and over again where my perp. brother is abusing me. In both dreams my life is in danger, one falling out of a tree house and the other drowning in a swimming pool. I wake up screaming and crying for help.

I sure wish and hope that someday they will end. Seems without the med's I have absolutely no control when I am going to have the nighmares. Life sure "sucks". Will I ever get control of my own body back?



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