I'm really sorry you went through all that. What a nightmare! I really feel a lot of people just are not functioning at a level that qualifies them as human..morally, mentally, spiritually, or emotionally. They look human, but they rape and lie and manipulate and hurt hurt hurt as they take take take.
I don't know jack diddly but I like to think that since there are most likely (as Carl Segan would say) billions and billions of life inhabited planets in the universe--if the number is even finite--that after we die we are reborn on whatever planet most resembles the world we most helped to create in our previous life.
Though that assumes some form of justice in the universe it also assumes that we earthlings were real pricks in our previous life, so I don't know if it's all that optimistic a view.
Well, ok I'm on a rant..sorry, anyway I really empathize and feel for you for what you have been through and wish you the best recovery possible.