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#246559 - 08/26/08 03:51 AM trauma and depression triggers
sportinrucks Offline

Registered: 10/01/04
Posts: 443
Loc: Louisiana
Lately, the more Ive been facing the issue of Sexual Abuse, the more it follows me everywhere I go like a cloud over me. I can't stop thinking about it. Lately, Ive been isolating and when I sleep I have to cover my ass like I used to do when I was younger in order to feel safe enough to go to sleep.

The isolating in turn is due to the treatment I have been receiving or letting happen to me in the Army by fellow soldiers which haunts me even though its been three years.

I find it hard to talk to other people anymore because it hurts to see other people being happy I usually take it out on myself.I have stopped the excessive drinking and pills. I still smoke cigarettes and the porn is something I have been struggling with.

Ive been fortunate enough to be supported by a great group of guys in my men's group and my local support group. And my family.
This has been a blessing. This is kind of where I am right now.

#246562 - 08/26/08 04:11 AM Re: trauma and depression triggers [Re: sportinrucks]
dark empathy Offline

Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2688
Loc: durham, north england

I completely understand what you say here about being followed by the Sa cloud and having trouble with seeing others happy. for me personally, things have gone in cycles, and a combination of antidepressants and counceling have insured that my down swings are not as long as they were, and that there are points I can concentrate on other things and even have fun, whether on my own or with others. In a good state, I can be happy that someone else is happy, while in a bad one, it hurts incredibly, ---- especially seeing a close, committed relationship betwene others.

what has helped me is professional counceling, being proscribed citalopram and (occasionally), advice from a couple of very close friends.

of course I'm not you, and my experiences and their effects will be different, but certainly I think there's reason to hope that the Sa cloud won't be consuming your life entirely over a long period.

#246593 - 08/26/08 12:47 PM Re: trauma and depression triggers [Re: dark empathy]
X-Liam-X Offline

Registered: 08/24/08
Posts: 3
I just wanted to clarify that you didn't LET it happen to you..

#246734 - 08/27/08 01:41 PM Re: trauma and depression triggers [Re: X-Liam-X]
LW1527 Offline

Registered: 05/14/08
Posts: 408
Loc: Salt Lake City Ut
Good couseling saved me. Opening up to MS started me to heal. You are not alone in your feelings here.



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