I have always been very uncomfortable with doctors, and I am sure it has to do with abuses done. But I am not sure really if it is fear because of the abuse, or if it is my discomfort with my body, which I know also is because of the abuse. I actually have more discomfort with dentist then regular doctor. I think because of competing as athlete so much, always we had to go through the exams and physicals, and it became less invasive seeming I think. But we were not forced to see dentist once or twice a year, and so I had not gone for five or six years until I had to go to one few months ago. But I was able to say I have abuse history, and please make it so I am relaxed. And she give me the happy gas and it was okay. But yes, there is still the uncomfort of going to any of them, and specially right now, when it has been to much for to long.


Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.

"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963