I saw USMC97's post and it partly inspired this one.
I 'think positive' but its not helping my recovery. right now im stuck, not moving forward or backwards. I just accept that my abuse happened, feel that unquenchable rage, and plod on through life. Dont get me wrong im relativly happy, I feel strong and confident. BUT (theres always a but)is it healthy? Im jsut cruising along, it almost feels like i bludgeon any thoughts of recovery down. I joke with myself that i must be all recovered patched up and almost as 'normal' as pre abuse. I know this isnt true..am i in for some epic break down? or is this a good spot to be for awile?
"Go then, there are other worlds than these"
-John 'Jake' Chambers
I'd rather be above the grass than below it.