I've never been a doormat, I've not chosen to be miserable either. THEY torture and rape me so how do I really cope with that? There is no way that I have any chance to protect myself from THEM. THEY are not everyday people, THEY are my perps. My captivity is not because of my failure, it is because of what THEY do to me. That which few understand and most doubt. I was not always like this... If I were, how would I ever have held any ground in the Corps.
I do hold to the motto of Semper Fidelis.... I try with no victory in sight. The Iwo Jima memorial is stamped on me. If you knew the true meaning of it all then there would be no questioning of me. My honesty is taken for negativity when it's just a true observation of what I continually have to go through.