After my experience, which was not CSA, I too found this a very hard issue. I still have a very hard time separating the two. Indeed, significant pressure was exerted upon me by members of my command in this area to extract my silence regarding what happened to me. My revictimization involved a LOT of interplay between these two areas. It has left significant scars in my soul.
I don't have the answers in this area, all I have are deep questions like yours about myself and who I am. Maybe with good resources and lots of soul-searching, I will find my answers. Maybe I just wanted to say I relate.
"When we go into battle, I will be the first to set foot on the field, and I will be the last to step off, and I will leave no one behind. Dead, or alive, we will all come home together." LTG Hal Moore, Jr., USA (Ret.)