You missed out on me
I was an amazing kid
Full of ideas
Full of music
Full of love
I would have loved you, you know
God, I wanted to
But, I didn't know how
You could have helped
"You didn't understand young children", she said.
I was your kid
What was to understand?
I needed love
I know, I know, I didn't help it either
I hated you
And didn't know why
Made up reasons why
And now I think I know
Do you know how guilty I felt for hating you?
Not loving your dad, that's a horrible thing
But not loving your son, that's worse
And you had a good one
You had me
And then you died before you ever knew
Maybe we could have made things better
I mean, even though the things you did.......
A boy needs his father's love
No excuses, Dad
You blew it
You sniveled when you should have loved
I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.