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#223853 - 05/12/08 02:16 PM Do you Cry for Me?
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/28/08
Posts: 2614
Loc: Central PA
A walk in the rain is where I went last night.
I do so love the rain.

While I walked, feelings and emotions that are hard to get out lately came. Not like they should have, it was strained.

Strained while I walked,
all the while it rained.
Fresh air all around,
while my feet padded the wet ground.

So I ask. God, do you cry for me?
This broken boy of a man?
Is this how it's supposed to be?

Is there a reason?
Is this just another "season"?
Maybe there is no "why".
It hurt so much, I fight to cry.

As I walk I pass a beautiful dogwood tree.
I remember what you did for me.

Be quiet, Be still.
Even when I'm not moving, my mind is running, always filled.

I feel so broken. So shattered. So alone and battered.
Maybe there is no reason. No purpose.
Maybe it really is just all chaotic insanity.
Help me! Please fix it all, so I can be who I am meant to be.

Anger and Pain. Pain and Anger.
Neither of these have ever been a stranger.

I'm lost. Unable to even figure out how to make it all end.

#223857 - 05/12/08 03:08 PM Re: Do you Cry for Me? [Re: JustScott]
Freedom49 Offline

Registered: 12/31/07
Posts: 2724
Loc: Washington State
Scott, I am glad you had to tak the walk. I point you to the shortest verse in the bible. Jesus wept. He wept for Lazarus, and for Mary and for Martha and for all of us. I believe when we hurt he hurts too. How can he not. This was not what he wanted for us his kids. He was human too. He was abused and betrayed also. Misunderstood and abandoned by his closest chosen friends. He understands and he weeps for us too. You are talking to him and that is a good thing. Larry said something that was actually quoted in another thread. When God sees us hurting, he sends us people. A great quote and so like God to make it so both get comforted. Hang in there guy.


#226018 - 05/23/08 03:53 PM Re: Do you Cry for Me? [Re: Freedom49]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

My answer is that yes, God cries for us. And there's an old saying, "When God sees us hurting he sends us people." I belive in that too.

You will get through this, Scott. It takes time and it's probably the most challenging thing you will ever do. But you can get through it.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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