I have been taking a specialized training course in martial arts called "Krav Maga" ...( in-close hand-to-hand-combat desinged and developed from the israeli special forces) and i'm really getting alot out of it, it's very intense and looking forward to my next class however being diagnosed with PTSD ( although the last class was 1-1 with my instructor) i have major issues with crowds and the next class will be with 25 more people for the next 6 weeks therefore i am not sure if i want to go back as a result of fear and apprehension.
I don't want my anxiety and trust issues to effect my choices and outlook on what i enjoy in life yet with ADHD i have a hard time with my ability to focus i'm not sure what to do, i could be possibly looking for an excuse to back out of the class , who knows.
Does this make sense..??
Anyone ever find themselves in similiar situations..??
I have a HUGE issue with being touched afterall it's self -defense which requires grappling .....i dont want to freak out as i have a few times in the past in other areas of my life, does anyone have any suggestions.
I thought about talking with my instructor and asking him if it's possible to continue 1-1 or work something out otherwise i'm not going to waste my time not to metnon his time as well.
" You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have "