Is all I've felt today, and strangley enough its new to me. Nervous, mistrusting, I've felt those, but all today I have had this horrible premonition that something is going to happen. My girlfriend, or my ex, or whatever our current status is, is hanging out with a guy she went to prom with and her ex from high school, and seeing as girls see a giant "CHEAT-ON-ME" sign on my foreheadI thought that could be it, but its so much more general than that. I'm feeling like everyone is out to get to me kind of sort of. I left my room once today, and was outside for maybe 15 minutes, got to the dining all and nearly sprinted back because something didnt feel right. I've half-way through my second pack of cigarettes ( I was doing so well too...hadn't had one in months) and I'm scared to pick up the phone when the lady calls me tonight after she gets home. I'm sweating in a 60 degree room. I've never felt this way before...perspective?
Neither fear nor courage saves us.
Unnatural vices Are fathered by our heroism.
Virtues Are forced upon us by our impudent crimes.
These tears are shaken from
the wrath-bearing tree.