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#220321 - 04/25/08 06:05 AM 1500
Freedom49 Offline

Registered: 12/31/07
Posts: 2724
Loc: Washington State

Ok This is my 1500th post. I made a deal with someone special that this would be a landmark post for me in a very personal way. I would release some more of the guilt and shame I had been carrying finally once and for all when I had posted my 1500th post.

So much of my time here, so much of my reading and replying has probably been due to guilt and stuff and what I would probably describe as penance for a wasted life. A couple of people C and B have called me on it and told me I need to set a limit and move on. Kind of like 4000 Hail Marys or Our Fathers.

So we set a limit. I have reached it. I did not get here by just posting hi and hellos either. There was a particular point to each one with maybe two or three exceptions. Sorry Robbie.

Another thing I have been called on is the way I have of signing off on some of my posts in a self deprecating way and trying to negate my contribution by or I could just be full of s__t which I later changed to or this could just be me.

You guys are good. One cant get away with much on this site. So along with my therapist recommendations, my buddies at the WoR, and my friends and best critics here, I reach my goal and accept absolution from myself.

So here it goes, I am dumping it now.
I repeat the affirmations that Howard gave me.

I will forgive myself.

I will forgive my father.

I will accept the forgiveness of others.

I will forgive little roger and refuse to blame him anymore.

I am a good boy and a good man and a good father.

So why am I crying? Maybe for joy at last?

#220322 - 04/25/08 06:09 AM Re: 1500 [Re: Freedom49]
HurtinginMD Offline

Registered: 03/02/08
Posts: 74
Loc: Cranston, RI
My Friend I salute you......i have so much respect for you... you befriended a newbie and have been a good friend. Congrats on the landmark (and i don't mean the posting). You're an example to us all.


I want always to be a boy and have fun... (Peter Pan)

#220324 - 04/25/08 06:13 AM Re: 1500 [Re: HurtinginMD]
frost Offline

Registered: 03/15/07
Posts: 1377
Loc: Eh?
well done mon

well doneth.


#220340 - 04/25/08 10:37 AM Re: 1500 [Re: frost]
DanM Offline

Registered: 11/09/07
Posts: 540
Loc: So. California

You are a good man, husband, friend and father. I am glad that you are finally allowing youself to believe it, because we all have known it for a long time.

I congratulate you on hitting the 1,500 mark. You have contribute so much to all of our recoveries and I want to personally thank you for your thoughtful comments and insight. As someone else said, "you have been and inspiration".

Just remember that you have many friends on here who think the world of you. It is nice to see that you are beginning to see why we feel that way!

Much love to you Roger.


#220341 - 04/25/08 11:05 AM Re: 1500 [Re: DanM]
arronb Offline

Registered: 02/02/08
Posts: 1005
Loc: Perth
Hey Roger ...

Woo Hoo 1500 Congratulations \:\)

Thank you for your posts, guidance and friendship,
you truly are the voice ...

Keep Smilin'

#220345 - 04/25/08 11:35 AM Re: 1500 [Re: arronb]
johnnymike Offline

Registered: 03/08/08
Posts: 56
Loc: Central Ohio
1500 is quite a milestone. I am sure that does not count the supportive private messages you send. Thank you for all your posts and contributions. You are a good man.

#220350 - 04/25/08 11:55 AM Re: 1500 [Re: johnnymike]
Hourglass52 Offline

Registered: 04/16/08
Posts: 59
Loc: New York
I have a Personal Bill Of Rights that I found, and I read it 3- 25 times a day. It realy helps me stay focused. Just Google Personal Bill of Rights. You can coppy one, or make your own.

" This above all: To thine own self be true" (William Shakespeare).

#220368 - 04/25/08 01:23 PM Re: 1500 [Re: Hourglass52]
ericc Offline

Registered: 01/05/08
Posts: 1986
Congratulations Roger. Your posts have been beyond helpful to me, and it is obvious others feel the same. I am glad you were able to affirm all these things, as you are deserving of all that and more.

#220375 - 04/25/08 01:49 PM Re: 1500 [Re: ericc]
dark empathy Offline

Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2669
Loc: durham, north england
Wow Roger, congrats. Your insites and kindness are a really major influence here I think, ---- I've certainly noticed them. In fact even what you say above about self-deprication and constant appology gives me something to think about right now.

Whatever you feel about the rest of your life, your doing a lot of good here I'd say, and I don't mean that in a "penance" type way, just to state the truth as It appears to me.

#220379 - 04/25/08 02:15 PM Re: 1500 [Re: dark empathy]
ineffable Offline

Registered: 02/07/08
Posts: 1371
Loc: state of holeecrapdood
Proud of you R mon


"now get yerself some ice cream"

:: "Anyone who can handle a needle convincingly can make us see a thread which is not there" ::

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