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#219471 - 04/21/08 03:00 PM I Shiver
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/28/08
Posts: 2615
Loc: Central PA
I sit. I work. I shiver.
The door is open a bit.
Cool air blows gently in.
It's clean and fresh and cool.
I'm not cold.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

I put my jacket on.
It warms my skin.
It warms my flesh.
I begin to sweat.
I'm over hot.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

I wrap my arms around tightly.
My long sleeves cover my arms.
I hunch over, trying to keep warm.
The sweat runs down my back.
It makes my skin crawl.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

It's fear that is cold.
Stealing heat from my soul.
Memories of past things.
I can't shake their hold.
My body tries hard.
It can't break free.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

#219476 - 04/21/08 03:19 PM Re: I Shiver [Re: JustScott]
Freedom49 Offline

Registered: 12/31/07
Posts: 2724
Loc: Washington State
And that my good friend, is why I work so hard. Distraction. From the cold, the fear, the shivering. It is a coping method until the healing is completed and I can rest. Probably in a long narrow box, but who knows...

#219478 - 04/21/08 03:28 PM Re: I Shiver [Re: Freedom49]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I hear you. I remember. So much of my "dedication" to my work was really just trying to cope, trying to "warm" my soul as you are doing.

You will get there, Scott.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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