This brings back such memories of fear for me, even though I was always safe at home. I was especially afraid once I was in my pajamas and got into my bed at night. Then when I was an adult I went through something similar all over again. I would sit downstairs and drift off in front of the TV rather than come upstairs and go to bed. It just seemed like the "safe thing to do".
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)