It's good to hear from you again. And I mean that very truly. I want to be sure you know this. I'm not sure I can expalin why. Your posts seem very brave, very strong, and very true. Just from your words, I feel like here is an authentic man. I would like to know him better. I think we would be friends.
I'm not sure if I ever replied to you before, but if I did, you don't need to thank me. I should thank you for sharing.
This post makes a lot of sense to me. I really identify with what you said.
I have been in conversations where I felt that suddenly, the converstaion was all about me.
One of my very closest friends is a teacher with autistic and developmentally disabled children. Sometimes she will be talking about a child and it describes me in some ways.
Or I could be just sitting at lunch with friends and colleagues, and a topic comes up which is all about me.
Usually, I get very scared and nervous. I get flushed and start to sweat, and get away as soon as I can.
But you didn't do that. Instead, you weren't afraid. You wanted to tell them right there, but you knew it wasn't the right time or place.
I think you did a great job handling this situation, even if you did get those sinking and cold feelings. You really did OK.
And that brings me to the man you talked about. I think that he must be a very sensitive and compassionate person. There may be a sexual attraction, but if that is not for you, than you will make that clear.
I don't think you should fear him because I think he does understand you in some ways. Maybe that is a little uncomfortable, but that could make him a very good friend.
He saw you having a hard time with getting the child inside, and he offered to help you. So he is perceptive, kind and generous. That's the kind of person we need more of.
And he said those very important words to you:
But Erik, you are not alone, together we are stronger.
He could have just said, I'll get the child, but he said so much more, and it was very important to you.
And he wanted to sit where you were. I think this is a sign of respect. Maybe he did realize that you were real for a moment when you were speaking and this was his way of showing you and supporting you.
And then he asked you if you were afraid of him. And you told him the truth, Yes!
You are an amazing person, Erik. I don't think I would have said the truth. But you did.
Like a lot of us here, I think you also have trouble believing that someone, anyone, could like you. And if they do, you wonder what they want from you.
But also, like a lot of us, you don't recognize your own goodness and what makes you someone who is very likeable.
I don't think he knows your story, but I think he does recognize that there is something you are dealing with. He shows that he is a very decent person, and that you are a good, special person.
I can see that you are from what you say and how you say it. He can see it in person.
I think he could be a very good friend. Maybe he is interested in you romantically, but that can be sorted out and doesn't have to be a problem.
Take it slow. You don't have to do or say anything you don't want to. See if you can trust him about little things, and maybe you will find a great friend. I know he will.