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#217515 - 04/12/08 09:08 AM Invisible
usmc97 Offline
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Registered: 08/02/05
Posts: 515
Loc: Colorado
No questions? Is silence resetting?
Don't say a word, "they're" still coming to get me.
There is no relief, there is no forgetting
And some wonder why it's still so upsetting

My screams are ignored, visuals disturbing
Everyone's safe while I'm left to hurting
Alone, hidden cell, "them" always returning
Forced to go back, it's not a journey

Learned to hide, not many are safe
Only chance is my friends now, there's so little faith
I'm sentenced to doom, confined to this place
Where nothing is right, that shows on my face

"Every man for themselves, in this case for sure"
That's not how things are especially in the Corps
My brothers would save me if they knew my war
How long can one last, I can't go on much more

My tears hold the pain, some care to listen
The things that repeat don't belong in existence
Dreams don't leave scars, so "they" aren't mere visions
I have no choices "they" make those decisions

The torture continues with each passing session
"They" are the evil, the cause of rejection
The need to feel safe, such a simple correction
Invisible me, who don't rate protection

Semper Fi

The statistics? 1 in 4, 1 in 6?
...then me the imaginary number

Abuse Part I&II


#217526 - 04/12/08 10:40 AM Re: Untitled for now [Re: usmc97]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Thanks for sharing this with us. I hope that by doing this you will feel more connected to the community we have here. We can't "save" you in the way you mean when you refer to the Corps, but we can assure you of our support and understanding and help you feel not so alone as you face the challenges before you.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#456892 - 12/16/13 10:00 PM Re: Untitled for now [Re: usmc97]
victor-victim Offline

Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6387
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
I often wished as a child, for the power of invisibility.
after reading your poem, I should be careful what I wish for.

this is a very powerful and painful piece of poetry.
very raw and honest.
it has that feeling of isolation and secrecy that always hurt the most.

I like this part...

"My brothers would save me if they knew my war"

that really conveys the confusion and frustration of the secondary victims.
so often overlooked, even by the survivors themselves.
the friends and family.
there is so much collateral damage.
the people who care about the abused are lost and left in the lurch as well.

thank you for this.


#456904 - 12/17/13 01:48 AM Re: Untitled for now [Re: usmc97]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 973
Loc: Canada
Thank you for sharing your thoughts usmc97.

I just posted a reply to nicky's
"I am a survivor".
I think it fits very well here as well.

As a child I was invisible and as an adult the child within me remained unseen ...
even to myself.
When I found him I showed him to others ...
and he stayed invisible to all but professionals ...
and they are paid to care.

A picture of the boy sits in a frame by my bed.

He is not invisible.
Experience is a brutal teacher.


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