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#212039 - 03/21/08 05:38 AM Disassociation of the mind

Registered: 08/12/07
Posts: 1298
Little one plays in the garden
smile on face with tonka toy in hand
clear skys with not a cloud in sight
sun bright and warm

shadow crosses the boys face
sweat and panic builds
shaking hand drops the toy
he stands tiny and alone
his eyes dart around the garden
all is quiet but something dark moves the air
flickers of memories dart around the corners of his minds eye

he calls for the man inside
lips tremble as he calls for the man inside
the man inside sleeps cannot hear the call of the boys mind

the garden fades into past memories
men with minds of lust fills his head
hands of darkness reach for the boy

the boy gathers his minds voice
opens his mind and screams
waves of memories crash against the mirror
once more the boys mind screams for the void

the mirror shatters spinning through his mind
a spinning cube fills his mind
the cube opens to engulf the boy
before it seals the boy smiles
all fear and panic is gone
now the boy can sleep

dark men of his memories cower hiding their faces
but cannot hide

the boys screams have called the void
splitting the past and present the void steps into now
coils of energy wrapped around the voids body
fear and panic fuels the void
anger builds rage of times past increase

man sleeps in the mind
boy hides in the spinning cube
both safe and hidden in the mind of man

the void calls the shadows to fill the empty man
arise and burn with cold eyes
veins filled with screaming hatred
mind burning with memories of lost childhood

the void gathers cold hatred to control the body of man
unfeeling uncaring all humanity has fled
stepping forth the void and man stand to face the threat

#212129 - 03/21/08 05:44 PM Re: Disassociation of the mind *DELETED* [Re: SEVEN ARROWS]
nicky Offline

Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
Post deleted by nicky

i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

#214785 - 04/02/08 09:17 AM Re: Disassociation of the mind [Re: nicky]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

A pretty harrowing image of what Little Ben had to endure. I hope you are telling him he's safe now. These things can't happen to him anymore. And again I admire your courage in posting with such emotional commitment. You're doing the hard work, my friend.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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