Before "they" were done with me sometimes things would be done just to add extra misery before I was released. My perps would paper cut me down there, at the pee hole and around the top part of my "parts" telling me that they knew I'd touched myself away from them(which I was too afraid to ever do). Just another punishment that I talked about with my therapist recently because it showed up again down there. That and teeth marks from being bitten down there. I also have burns this week to make things worse. I don't imagine this crap.
I hate when it's told to me that it's not real... my docs don't know how it works but they do know it's not made up. The people that really know me have seen it happen over and over. I never heal, never get a chance to with "them" getting me all the time. Everything they do to me I wake with all the evidence and it's not temporary. Some existance I have.
I don't have DID or have done anything to myself unconscious, not many believe me..... that hurts too