[quote=thecoopstah]"am i ok"...am i going insane"
My 25 yr. old son who recently was a victim of sexualized trauma, asks this question everyday. He is battling with intrusive thoughts and imagery, not straight flashbacks where he is re-living the actual event, but horrific images of carnage involving himself or others, that have driven him to the point of suicide. He has experienced some hope when we assured him that these were symptoms of psychic injury due to the trauma, and not a reflection of something intrinsically wrong with him . . .however although he has taken a step back from the brink, he is still not out of the woods. He told us yesterday, that the images are there in the background most of the time, and he still battles with them when trying to go to sleep. He is scared he is losing his mind.
From what I understand, these intrusive thoughts/imagery can lead to Dissociative Identity Disorder . . . I'm very frigthened for my son, and I know he is very scared too.
He knows all about trying to stay in the present, and I think he tries to re-focus as much as possible, and is aware of other practical exercises like "eating and apple", snapping your wrist with an elastic band etc., but I'm wondering if there is anyone out there, I know that some survivors view and post here occassionaly, who experienced this kind of thing following fresh trauma, and how you survived it . . . I guess my son could sure use some encouragement by knowing that there are others out there, who felt like they were going crazy, and literally exhausted from the effort of trying to battle this, but that survived this. . . .
Any info, personal story of survival would be much appreciated.