As of Tonight i have experienced yet another loss in my life and a loss of self thru the loss of my grandfather.My Grandfather was my protector as a kid from "The SA" that was occuring in my childhood.This man i could talk to about anything and also bounce things off of him and learn from him and gain knowledge and wisdom that i would have never gained if not for his grandfatherly aproach with me.
Matt I havwe taken a while to answer because I too suffered the loss of a protector. Not from SA but from Alcohol. I know the pain.
But I do have the benefit of time to really see it as it is. My Sponsor died before I got my 5 year medallion in AA. I was devistated.
He was a crusty sob but a straight shooter and he more than any one kept me on the right path, kicked the poor mes out me. Would not put up with any bullshit from me about how hard it was. He kept me focused on the goal. "Dont drink today".
Well Matt I am 27 years in aa and I still focus on the goal that he showed me. I loved that Man and thought the world would end for me when he died. I felt that he had betrayed me for leaving me alone.
During my medallion presentation someone suggested that I get another sponsor. I replied and I think this is what I said.
"Replace Fred. How can I do that. There is no one else like him on earth. And I dont have to replace him. He is with me always. I have learned from him and so a part of him lives on in me.
Matt I still feel that way. And you will too about your GRANDFATHER. He is there forever in your mind and in your soul. He will continue to touch you throughout your life and also the lives
of those you touch because he is your role model.
He is part of what makes you unique.
Your brother wolf