Five years ago; early January 2003 when I suffered my initial nervous breakdown resulting from gang rape in the past. I had a gf whom I loved and respected dearly. In the six weeks I spent in the psyche ward she broke up with me. I tried to explain my ugly past to her as best as I could despite my broken emotional state. In hindsight I really can't say why she didn't want to pursue our relationship. She was very special to me, I practically worshiped the ground she stood on. I was deeply in love with this woman, and I was sure that she loved me too. Don't understand, love is awfully weird sometimes I guess. Perhaps something of my heart-wrenching past triggered something in her own. Most people are inclined to avoid other people with emotional baggage.
It hurt deeply what she did to me but perhaps in the end it was what was best for her at that time. I learnt to let go of this but it hasn't been easy.
No affliction nor temptation, no guilt nor power of sin, no wounded spirit nor terrified conscious should induce us to despair comfort from God.
Today well lived...makes every tomorrow a vision of Hope.