Some of you may remember my need to understand
a CSA survivor. I have to thank you all for immediately
lending your strong support, advice & direction.
It helped me deal with my own issues as well.
I didn't feel so bad about his behavior towards me.
Granted, I deserve to be respected as I respect myself.
But having insight on why he unintentionally yet intentionally
hurts my feelings, has given me a new sense of strength.
Now, I do not take his actions as personally as I did before.
I always thought his hurtful behavior was direct
attacks on me. And now I know he pushes me away
when I get too close to the heart.
We've recently reconnected & are talking in a civil manner.
I haven't sprung the suggestion of therapy but I will very
soon. For now, I'm glad we are on decent speaking terms,
which gives me room to reel him in in the matter.
I am off in 3 hours...moving wayyy across country, 3000+
miles away from him, to give myself room to breath. At
this point, if he wants to be bothered, it's on him.
Sometime this week I plan to introduce him to MS.org
I will surely keep you all posted.
Thanks again to you all, for everything. I've
read so many stories that have enlightened me in
a way that I will be more sensitive to all CSA
I truly gain more then ever expected.
I've finally coming to terms, out of denial,
with my own story. Therapy is in the near
future for me.
Good luck to you all. I will post
an update soon. All while, I'll also
be spectator gaining more insight from
you dear people.
Treat everyone you meet as if they were God in disguise.