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#210557 - 03/14/08 12:42 AM ...
nicky Offline

Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
do you know what you have done to me

i dout it

while you are locked away safe and sound in your litle cell
my whole world falls apart
as least on the inside

the second your hands touched me i died

poeple around me dont understand and i dont expect them to
why should they
they havent been raped
destroyed behind closed doors

poeple dont understand

they cant

i cant

i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

#210570 - 03/14/08 01:24 AM Re: ... [Re: nicky]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I think we have to draw distinctions between things we can learn to understand and things we will never understand. I think we CAN understand our feelings and how they have affected us, and how by examining these old feelings we can revise them and take away their power to harm us.

But I don't think we can ever understand why abusers do what they do. I know therapists like Ken Singer work on that and it helps to prevent the creation of new victims. So it's important work. But as a survivor myself I wonder if I will ever have the objectivity to genuinely "understand" what was done to me, in the sense of "why". At the moment I still think that real logical reasons just don't exist: where is the reason or logic, for example, in sexually abusing a child?

Just some thoughts. You're touching on an area I think about a lot.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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