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#210017 - 03/11/08 07:57 AM Tonight
Mark P Offline
New Here

Registered: 02/13/08
Posts: 17
Loc: Bonney lake, WA

Tonight, I want to die
Not at my own hands
But in the hands which release responsibility

Tonight, I want to be someone other than me
Not because I have created who I am,
But because I am who I am

Tonight, I want to feel surrounded by everyone
Not because I want to be praised,
But because I want to be wanted and loved

Tonight, I want to be everyone else
Because this is what I see.

Walk a day in my shoes, and you will want to die. protect me from a day in my shoes, and i will be forever in your debt.

#210032 - 03/11/08 12:30 PM Re: Tonight [Re: Mark P]
Freedom49 Offline

Registered: 12/31/07
Posts: 2724
Loc: Washington State
Boy have I felt that way Mark. Way to many times. I am glad I am still here now. I am glad your still here now. You have value unappreciated yet obviously but hang in there. We care about you and you are part of everyone els here. Wanted and loved but not realized yet by you. I discovered that here and you will too.

#210062 - 03/11/08 03:16 PM Re: Tonight [Re: Freedom49]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I think we have all been there, or are still there in some ways. It's so easy to see how others deserve to be wanted and loved, but so difficult to see that in ourselves. We feel like we are "alone in a crowd". Just know that you are as valued and loved as anyone else is here.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#210096 - 03/11/08 05:18 PM Re: Tonight [Re: roadrunner]
dancr6 Offline

Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
your words are right on like so many of the words I've heard here.
we all know in our intellect that we were not to blame for the crap that wanders around in our head, but it seems so difficult to assimilate it into our emotions
like the rest of us, keep moving forward the light seems to get brighter!

I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!


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