My sister wrote on myspace blog
Why do people use ???
Why do people drink and do drugs ? Its a proven fact that if you do these things it will screw your life up! Spend one day in a rehab program and see where it got those people,its not a pretty site !!!!! You may think its fun to be all fu*#ed up till something happens and you can't remember, you just know it did. People who are under the influance of any type of drugs are more apt to kill or harm someone,even children,and the ones they love !!! Its not them who suffer for thier actions ,ya they may feel bad and have regrets but the real suffering is the people that they hurt.The people that they kill when under the influance.And last the people they blame for thier actions because thier confused and dont know what happen to them, so they tell what they belive is true even though they dont know !!!!The only way to stop this crazyness is to stop using, stop drinking, teach your childred the dangers that go along with use.I myself have lost alot do to drinking and drugs and to this day i still suffer for the mistakes of others.It never heals, the hurt never goes away ! We just push it aside and go on.
My response and I'm pretty pissed off.
There are some people who's lives have been messed up by other people innocent children molested and hurt, lied to and abused, threatened and manipulated until they don't even know which way is up. I sent you two emails and you never log in so they got deleted. but you know I really don't give a shit. Your not the only one going through pain and suffering as a result of drug & alcohol abuse. What about fucken child abuse I went through? 8 ass holes fucked up my life not drugs & alcohol. Drugs and alcohol were just a symptom of the abuse I suffered and I paid the price for 25 fucken years. How do you tell your family that you were sexually abused my men when your a little boy? I took responsibility for what I did I haven't been on drugs or alcohol for 5 years. No it don't make the hurt go away and have made amends the best I could. But you should understand that not everyone just chooses to fuck up their life. From my experience, and you know I have had more than my share, there are many people out there messed up because of other things that that happened to them that are too horrible to see the light of day. The reason I'm posting this here is you don't check your email enough to warrant me sending anymore. You want to know what happened to me and now you do. You want to blame someone for your pain go talk Frank B., Jean M., Jim M., Mikey?, Bill., Tim L., Karen A., The lady down the ally on pine street, Edith H. for giving me porn at 13, stuff like Hustler, OUI, Penthouse. WTF is up with that?
Do you think I wanted to live like I did? Do you think I had a choice? I was brainwashed, manipulated, and threatened! I did the best I knew how and it was just not good enough.
It was never good enough, I was never good enough. Dating sluts and cheap tramps, dating messed up people because I didn't think I deserved any better. You have no idea the guilt, shame, and fear I carried around with me from the age of 12. And I was told if I ever told I would be hurt psychically, put in jail, made fun of, not believed, called a lier. The last of these have happened.
Watch this and you may know what I went through and how I felt.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFIZPYUd2dM
I'm sad that you have endured the pain you have and if any was because of me then I am truly sorry. This was not the life I wanted but its the I got and I'm doing the best I can with what I have left.