That's a good question: "What will I be when all this is over?"
Who knows, but you will be achieving, feeling and dreaming all the things the abuser tried to take away from you. Sounds like a good deal to me. And recovery is a path rather than a goal. The benefits keep coming to us, the longer we tread the path.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)