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#205879 - 02/18/08 02:06 PM Poem
GentleSoul Offline

Registered: 03/05/07
Posts: 244
Loc: San Diego
I feel there is no hope.
I am walking on sadness.
When I cry sometimes I feel I cannot stop.
Alone, forsaken, and forlorn.
I don't want anything and anyone.
I am resigned in this twilight.
Fuck the righteous! I am tired
of all things I'm told I must do!
I am tired of listening!
I am tired of being corrected!
My anger is mine!
Vengeance is my blood!
Don't tell me what I need!
Am I lost or do you just love giving directions,
Instructions, commands?
In return for validation or approval?
Condescendingly, patronizingly...
I do not want to listen!
Don't ever tell me this is too hard!
I want to break something and someone!!
But then why do I post this tirade?
A part of me wants to heal.
How do you help someone who doesn't want to feel?

I can finally admit I pretend to say and do nice things so people will think I'm a standout guy.

#205896 - 02/18/08 03:59 PM Re: Poem [Re: GentleSoul]
dancr6 Offline

Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
A part of me says I want help in healing and another says leave me the f____ alone. A part says help me understand and another says you think you're hot sh__ you'll never understand. I want intimacy and love then when it's close by I dodge it like it was a demon. The confusion created by my CSA is still very much alive after all these years but then I read something like "where the boys play" and remember that there are good parts to my life and I feel a lot better when I dwell on them.
I'm sorry for all of us when we are in the "valley" but rejoice when we have moments of rising to the peak. I honestly believe things are getting better.

I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

#206134 - 02/19/08 12:10 PM Re: Poem [Re: GentleSoul]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Originally Posted By: GentleSoul
How do you help someone who doesn't want to feel?

You can begin by listening to him, by letting him see he is worth hearing. \:\)

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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