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#200814 - 01/23/08 05:34 AM Reposting my old stuff "Illucid Lullaby"
usmc97 Offline
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Registered: 08/02/05
Posts: 515
Loc: Colorado
Illucid Lullaby

I sit here
I can't sleep
I'm too scared
I didn't eat

I have a place
It isn't safe
Alone again
Barely awake

My face is marked
By dried up tears
No one hugs me
Just my fears

I must sleep now
It's been too long
Are way too strong

Sleep deprived
I'm only a man
A boy inside
Both scared of them

They've been here
I'm scared awake
I'll fall asleep
Then they'll take

All of which
Was done to me
The painful cycle
Again repeats

They'll have there way
They'll take their turns
No one will help
My cell confirmed

Goodnight to all
Except for me
No love around
Just one need.

Semper Fi

The statistics? 1 in 4, 1 in 6?
...then me the imaginary number

Abuse Part I&II


#200849 - 01/23/08 12:11 PM Re: Reposting my old stuff "Illucid Lullaby" [Re: usmc97]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

I'm glad you are able to talk about all this. Do you still feel this way? I have often found that just talking about my feelings has helped me to resolve them.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

#203095 - 02/02/08 03:02 AM Re: Reposting my old stuff "Illucid Lullaby" [Re: roadrunner]
froggy12 Offline

Registered: 11/12/06
Posts: 527
Loc: Marlboro, MA 01752
Desolation is worse than death. To have these thoughts, without any hope, because we keep them to ourselves, and they go around and around in the head and only stop when a door is opened and they fly out. Any door, metaphor of course, will do: oral, written, just so that it's out of the head so others can see/hear and share. As Larry said, sharing the feelings helps dissipate the desolation.

The starkness of your verse is profound. Well done!




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