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#198622 - 01/08/08 11:56 AM "Abused: Willing to Talk"
Bobby Offline

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
I think of you every day
All of you
Out there
Inside, where people cannot get to you
Protecting your little boys
Nurturing them
Calming them when they are so afraid
Smiling, when all you want to do is find a private place to be alone
Going on, when there seems to be no reason why
Loving so intensely, so they will never have to feel the way you do inside
The loneliness
The quiet desperation of thinking no one will ever get inside to find you
I think of you every day
And I wonder if you might be sitting right beside me
Or passing me on the street
Or even a friend
Sometimes I want to wear a big button that says "Abused: Willing to Talk"
But you know I never will
For we are alike, you and I
Putting on our normal faces
Living our normal lives
Not knowing what to do
To stop the loneliness
Desperate to find a way to break down the walls
And let another person come inside

I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.

#198623 - 01/08/08 12:02 PM Re: "Abused: Willing to Talk" [Re: Bobby]
dancr6 Offline

Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Probably one of the most poignant verses I have ever read.
My life in a proverbial nutshell, no doubt.
I thank god for people like you Bobby.
I've thought about a t-shirt that says essentially what you want your button to read, but like you, I never will because it would take away from my "normal face".

I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

#200827 - 01/23/08 06:01 AM Re: "Abused: Willing to Talk" [Re: dancr6]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Again you hit the nail on the head. There have been so many times I have felt like that, thinking one-in-six, one-in-six, and figuring there must be a hundred others around me silenced as I was.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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